Helplessness 奈何 by 天籁纸鸢/君子以泽 Tian Lai Zhi Yuan/Jun Zi Yi Ze (BE)


I still recall the white lotuses, and the gentleman’s face which was akin to peach blossoms.

The beauty is unable to see clearly; thus, even if we meet, we can only engender feelings of helplessness.

I remain rooted where we first met, waiting for you to turn back, and fall in love with me.

I have always been waiting. As long as I am willing to wait, even flowers would bloom in Avīci, the lowest level of Hell.

No matter which identity you are presently using, because of me, you remain the beautiful and sweet girl who lives in the days of the past, always smiling ever so gently.

Love is simply like this – it rots in your soul and pierces your bones, unchangeable even by death.

Note: Ximalaya deleted the audiobook

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9 Responses

  1. Ivy
    Ivy October 13, 2015 at 6:59 am |

    This novels sounds heartbreaking :'( :'( I was actually considering it after seeing it on ximalaya with two of my favourite voice actors but don’t think my heart can take it. I need something fun and uplifting

  2. dramasbooksandtea
    dramasbooksandtea October 14, 2015 at 7:53 am |

    @ Ivy Haha I really liked the ximalaya audiobook as well! I thought the whole audiobook was pretty well done. The book starts off quite funny and light but it does get heart wrenching, especially at the end when the readers get a more concrete idea of the sacrifices Hua Zi Xiao made for Dong Fang Mei. As it’s written from the first person perspective, it’s sad to see how heartlessly happy and joyful Dong Fang Mei is but we can’t blame her because as readers we know that her memory’s wiped and she can’t do anything about it.

  3. Angel
    Angel October 21, 2015 at 12:27 am |

    Hi! I’ve just recently gotten into chinese novels but I keep seeing BE and HE everywhere. What exactly does that mean??


  4. chancy426
    chancy426 November 11, 2015 at 2:03 am |

    I find this author to be very cruel. I read her 月都花落,沧海花开 before and it was sad ending as well.

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  5. raini
    raini October 31, 2016 at 4:08 am |

    Heard so much good things about this story and also because it’s by Zhun Zi Yi Ze, I know it will be written very well and pull heart strings. Despite knowing it’s bad ending, I feel nostalgic for more of this series. The author’s characters cross over a lot and usually pop up in other of her stories. I got a glimpse of the OTP in this story from her other book Sea of Flowers and some spoilers from Chancy. I think I am kind of 变态 diving into this right after Sea of Flowers knowing how much of a stepmother the author is…

  6. raini
    raini November 3, 2016 at 3:56 pm |

    I slightly like this story better than Sea of Flowers due to the main girl being more likeable. She is still very 负心though!! The author is so cruel, but in a way this feels like a open ending. Yang Yun was able to remember Mei when he looked at the Three Lives rock and perhaps he will remember everything when Hua Zi Xiao dies just like Mei did. That’s my only condolence because my poor heart hurting so much right now!! Junzi To Ze needs to write a story on Tian Di and torture him too!

    *Edit* I found the part with Yang Yun crossing the bridge. There’s hope people!! He called himself Yun Xiao and called her Qing Mei!!

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