Living Up to You (Bu Fu Huang Yan) 不负荒颜 by 西西东东 Xi Xi Dong Dong (BE)



He swore, in the name of the Gods, to protect her through her three lifetimes, through her three worlds. If the Gods stand in the way, slay the Gods! If the Buddhas stands in the way, slay the Buddhas!

She swore, in the spirit of the Immortals, to hate him eternally, abandoning him forever. Even when the Gods and Buddhas are no more, even when the the heavens and earths reopen!

The oath will never die, the desolation will never grow old.

In that long long life of countless thousands years, all she ever wanted was just a few years…

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22 Responses

  1. unforgetableme
    unforgetableme October 13, 2016 at 2:58 am |

    Ooohhh…. Sounds interesting. If anyone knows more about the plot or main characters, please elaborate!!!

  2. raini
    raini October 13, 2016 at 8:10 am |

    I don’t want to give away any big spoilers, but the main girl looks exactly like the girl the main guy was in love with, and at first I thought it was your typical guy finds ex-lover’s reincarnated life , but you will see it’s a lot more complicated than that the farther you get in the story. The main girl really cares that she looks like his previous love, and that drives a big wedge in between them. But I have no doubt that he was 100% in love with the main girl, or else I might ended up hating the main guy! This author is very tricky and the plot is full of plot twists, very creative!!

  3. greenleafstory
    greenleafstory October 19, 2016 at 5:22 pm |

    I don’t mind spoiler pweaase. Is the main girl die?

  4. idontreadsite
    idontreadsite October 20, 2016 at 5:40 pm |

    So is the entire story told in ‘flashback’ or memories since the main girl dies in the first chapter itself?
    It sounds like an interesting story but terribly heartbreaking too

  5. Grace
    Grace October 23, 2016 at 8:24 pm |

    Someone please spoil me …I’m using google translater and getting now where.The only things i understand is the last epigloue for the male lead so sad..Pls pretty please…

  6. ChocolateCosmos
    ChocolateCosmos November 5, 2016 at 9:12 am |

    Does anyone know the viet title for this novel? I’ve been searching up the author (viet name is tây tây đông đông) ,but I haven’t seen this novel in particular.

  7. skyblu629
    skyblu629 November 26, 2016 at 5:09 am |

    This was soo good, but so sad. I can’t say that the ending was either of their fault. Everything was just the wrong thing said at the wrong time at the same place. Or maybe this is the calamity of Jin Yan for doing so much to save Nan Zhi. Of all the faces Qin Yu could have chosen, he chose Dong Hua Shang Xian’s and had the catastrophe that caused. Or the way Ling Xi’s body deteriorated with her spirit, if her hearing were better.

    Although if Nan Zhi were slightly better with words, things could have turned out much better. But then if he were better with words, he wouldn’t be Nan Zhi. Nan Zhi really did love Ling Xi, and if he recognized her when Jin Yan first possessed Ling Xi’s body, maybe everything will be different.

    Although I still don’t understand what Feng Su meant by, “Do you remember yet?” Because I don’t think Jin Yan has any relations with Feng Su. But it’s nice that he missed her genuineness and respect, even if he deserves everything that he got.

    I don’t think the girl in the end was her reincarnation. Qin Yu said there was no trace of her left, because her heart has died so she has nothing left and is no longer willing to stay. To her dying breath, she thought that Nan Zhi loved Chen Xi and Ling Xi was just a replacement. It is a nice thought, but, unless, an external miracle happened, the turtle thing seems like a coincidence. It was something that Nan Zhi needed to hear, or have hope for.

    But overall, it is a really lovely story and the audiobook is great.

  8. skyblu629
    skyblu629 November 28, 2016 at 2:34 pm |

    I can’t blame Dong Hua for everything. He was trying to fulfill his own love. His own love gives up her memories every 10 years in order to not love him. By a thousand years, he was crazy and will do anything to get her back, even if it means ruining other people’s lives. I feel like his love story was meant to parallel flower Nan Zhi and Ling Xi. It would never be accepted because spirits are not people, they do not have enough of a soul. Although, both a spirit and the demon lord are unacceptable, but at least a demon lord has enough power to force everyone else to accept it.

    I think the saddest part was when Ling Xi asked Nan Zhi if xians, yaos, and humans are all the same to him. And he said yes, because they were all equally insignificant to him. And it’s true, when the soul gathering ritual failed, he killed everyone in his way, even though Ling Xi made him promise not to, because Cang Jia didn’t matter at all compared to her soul and her body. He was so upset and crazy that Cang Yu lied to him. And the demon world being a reflection of the demon lord’s mood. It used to be blue and happy, but after Ling Xi’s death, it was dark and gloomy. And the little bird’s excerpt, Nan Zhi was a demon lord, but for Ling Xi he made sure that the spiritual air was completely xian without a trace of mo at all, and how he knew the entire time but never said anything.

    I think the only chance for a happy ending was when Jin Yan took over her own body. But Nan Zhi had to say Chen Xi. It was probably both because it was the logical idea, as her spirit is floating around, and because he couldn’t bear to hope it was Ling Xi. And she misunderstands that everything he has done for her, going to plays and being with her, was for Chen Xi, when he was actually calling her a Ling Xi imposter. It would have given her enough hope to stay. Even if she had died, if even a sliver of her soul had stayed, Qin Yu could have regathered it. They are all immortal anyway, they have enough time.

  9. Tiffany
    Tiffany January 6, 2017 at 12:35 am |

    I have just finished the audiobook, are there any other ones that have a similar storyline?

  10. Raini
    Raini January 11, 2017 at 2:54 am |

    I haven’t read it yet, but from the summary, Half-Tried LIttle Deity seems pretty similar! Best of all, it’s a happy ending!!

  11. juju
    juju August 7, 2017 at 2:38 am |

    wait so ling xi and chen xi are two different people? and who’s is jin yan, and how is she related to ling xi? someone please help, i’m so confused….

  12. skyblu629
    skyblu629 August 10, 2017 at 12:54 am |

    From what I remember, Jin Yan, one of the magic mirrors with Qin Yu, is the former form of Ling Xi. In the first lifetime/timeline, Nan Zhi is one of the sons of the God, but as a halfblood, the Empress wanted to kill him. Jin Yan, who loves him, gives him the power to pretty much overpower everyone else in the heaven realm. During this time, Jin Yan is unknown to Nan Zhi , there is a girl, Chen Xi, who he cared for.
    When the Empress plots to kill Nan Zhi, Jin Yan tries to save him. The result ends up with Chen Xi essentially dead, Nan Zhi sealed, and Jin Yan shattered. As a result, Jin Yan became a child with Chen Xi’s face. Thus, all of our misunderstandings began.
    This is still a beautiful story, but I really can’t push myself to reread it and watch everything slowly break apart.

  13. juju
    juju September 2, 2017 at 4:30 am |

    so chen xi and ling xi are two different people? jin yan/ling xi just happens to look like chen xi after her soul shattered?
    And what’s the story behind feng su? how does he connect with ling xi/jin yan or evem chen xi in the past?

  14. TheLibrarianPH
    TheLibrarianPH March 10, 2018 at 6:13 pm |

    someone translated this up til chapter 13. hopefully she continues it till the end.. for now im really up for any spoilers .. what is Feng Shu’s relationship with Ling xi before they went to Cang Jia Shan.?

    when he shielded her and his soul scattered there was a scene like this
    “Feng Shu’s gaze fell from her face, a light chuckle escaped as he sighed “Still.. you can’t remember…”

    As far as the translation goes. its said that both feng shu and Ling Xi are the same in a way that their souls has no past and would only get One lifetime. so I assume somewhere in Feng shu’s long life he somewhat met Ling Xi another form or something??.

  15. mn0125
    mn0125 August 10, 2019 at 4:14 pm |

    begging for spoilers for this pleaseee

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